HomeOther What I Actually Mean When I Tell,’ I’m Happy For You’ April 20, 2017 Other No Comments Tweet Pin It The truth is, I’m not really happy for you. I’m not over the moon you fell in love with a girl and assure a future with her now. I’m not happy. Even though that’s what I told you. I know this stimulate me seem like a terrible person. It constructs me seem bitter and jealous and selfish. And maybe a part of me is. I make small talk with you. I ask you what she’s like. I ask you what her hobbies are and what type of wine she likes. I ask you why you love her. I find out she is nothing like me. She doesn’t like to write. She doesn’t like to sing. But she has brown hair, just like me. And that’s the best thing I see in her, that reminds me of me . I wonder if her hair reminds you of me when you wake up lying next to her. I wonder if the fact that she doesn’t have musical talent annoys you. I wonder if you ever think of me when you are with her. I merely wonder for a little bit, until I tell myself to stop it . Of course you don’t think of me. She is beautiful. She is kind from what I can see.And she is perfect for you. So maybe I’m a little happy. Happy that you’re in a stable relationship. Happy you seem to have your life together. But am I happy that you are in love with person that isn’t me? No. I hate it. I detest you and her together. I detest find it. I detest hearing about it and I detest thinking about it. I decide to make a joke with you and you tell me how grateful you are that we can talk about stuff like this. I wish you knew how sad my heart felt when I read those words. And then I did something I wasn’t supposed to do. I told you I still loved you. I told you I assured a future of you and me. Forever like you said. I spilled my intestines out. I told you, that even though it’s been three years, I still want you. I’m still in love with you. You didn’t feel the same. And youwon’t ever feel the same . So when I tell I’m happy for you, I don’t mean it. I don’t mean a single word or part of it. Because I’m happiest when I’m with you. And I’d be the happiest girl, to have a guy like you in my life again. If she becomes the girl you marriage, I hope she acknowledges how special you are. And I hope she loves you like I’ll love you until the working day I take my last breath on this globe . Read more: About The Author Related Posts Other Merely In Time For Nick Viall’s ... By February 24, 2017 Other The Unique Pain Of Having Your ... By September 2, 2017 Other We Are The Generation That Doesn’t ... By July 28, 2017 Leave a Reply Cancel reply Notify me of follow-up comments by email. Notify me of new posts by email.